What Had Happened Was ...

[TragicPixie]

There was the boy which I got dumped by my fiancee for fucking - which I understand and you know ... in the end I do'nt regret. Well, see the problem was he IS a boy and as I learned from his best friend this weekend I was girl number two and probably hurt him a lot by being well ... me ... and only loving him (not being able to actually fall IN love with him and etc.) that and caring and calling him on his bullshit (of which there is a lot).
Well so he didn't like me calling him on his bullshit - and he ran away from me cause he felt something. So ... he stops calling.

A good friend of his ... (who dumped his last gf and Boy C started fucking her on the same day) was bored and lonely. And I was bored and lonely. So we got together - for awhile - and like I said, I might should have put out. Though the easiest way to get in my pants would probably be to let me be my alcoholic self, he thought E would be better. It's not. Cause there's a mirror over his bed ... and so yeah ... it went from maybe I'll put out to OhMiGod... I'm glowing. Look, I'm beautiful and me staring into the mirror for a few hours really fast. He tried for a really long time to get in my pants - but didn't so he gave up and dumped me.

Then ... what had happened was ... I called Boy C because he couldn't find the party and we were bored... and we hung out ... and went skinny dipping .. and what had happened was, I don't know what had happened was. We think if we had gotten pills we would not have ended up in bed together in that way... but we did. Boy C is Boy A's best friend. And we might want to tell him - gently - and I can explain that you know, it's his fault we aren't together and etc.
But what had happened was is ... I don't really know. And it's very very good.

Oh yes - and another only half related what-had-happened-was ... I *almost* had sex with my current/former/probably sometime in the future when we both need it fuckbuddy's roommate. Because when we were all rollin together we did the E bonding - and before that we did the hey look Mel's drunk again and why does she have to be so self destructive bonding and then ... we're talking and he's smoking and I'm drinking and he's smiling and shotgunning me cause I'm lazy ... and it's more fun as long as he remembers I'm a little pixie and then we're mostly naked and we don't know what had happened was because it just had happened and just as he was emoting and I was trying to tell him not to apologise it's ok and it was good and everything's fine ... Boy C walked downstaris and was suprised to find me mostly naked in bed with yet ANOTHER boy. (And also awake at 8am, then realised very simply I had not slept yet)