Bulletin Board of Bad Behavior

You know, I love being chased down by the IRS! I love being the poor white trash single mom that they torture, leaving the rest of the fucking idiot useless fucks alone. I so enjoy getting certified letters from them saying they are going to take my single mom paychecks because four years ago, I didn't claim something I did.
You know what else I love? I LOVE Paying bills when other people should pitch in. Yep, makes me proud when I ask for bill money and the person that lives with me won't even respond. Makes me so happy I want to have a fucking party! Love it!
I can't wait for that fourteen hour day!!!! Jesus fucking christ let me jump for fucking joy!!!
Can't wait for tomorrow, that 26 day work...month

God, I love it when I've been up every day at 4 to go to work at 5 for 14 days straight and the only day off I have, the person I live with thinking it's funny to walk in and out and in and out and in and out of my BEDROOM (being the livingroom, since it is a one bedroom apartment, and well, he has later hours so why should I have any form of privacy???) until he pokes my foot and asks if I'm alive. Sleep? Fuck it! what do I need it for? Do I work three hour days? Aw, gee. Nope. But I have to work 10-12 hour days to make the same.
Shit! I'm going to take my 3 hours of stolen hedonism because I come home every day so fucking sick and tired of caring that I don't care to follow the rules that have been made. I don't care to wash my dish when I'd wash all the dishes if I wasn't being taken advantage of.

However...

Here nor there.

Nothing seems to get it through so here it is...

1. You will show respect when you live in my home.If I have worked 12 hours and just want to sleep, I do not want to hear any crap about dishes, laundry, or the state of my home. I do not want to entertain you or your friends or girlfriend. I want to relax.

2. If you cannot do something or pay for something, you will say so, and promptly though I know it will all be bullshit because you'd rather buy a record.

3.You will not impose rules on a household you have no capcity to deal with unless you sit down and outline it first, and then it must be agreed upon.

4. You let me walk in and out and in and out and in and out of your personal space and wake you up when you are fucking tired so that I can belittle you for working to take care of your shit.

5. I have this fucked up idea that we might want to sit and chat about things real soon.

Hey I lived with him for 5 years on 2 continents so I don't even wanna hear any bitching from a neophyte (lol).

I am sorry about the IRS... but I don't think that's mc's fault. Sometimes its easy to blame him for everything when he eats all your food and wakes you up drunk at 4 am.

And asking mc for money... well that doesn't work very well either. He always says something like "I just paid that last month" even if it was 6 months ago.

Hope you work it out.

No worries Slothie, it's just harder sometimes when someone owes you money and won't pony up and you have all this other shit to deal with.
I have my explosively angry moments which I let go the other night, within reason but with no real regard for anything but my own shit.
As for whether I keep or lose a friend... I don't think that's an issue due to the fact that I haven't truly felt like one for some time. I'm not worried about who I'll piss off any longer because it's lost it's meaning. I'm not a friend, I'm a landlord. I'm that bitchy creature that is tolerated because I let him move in. I'm just tired. I'm tired of having to fight for any little bit of space, respect, consideration. I'm tired of worrying when he disappears that something is wrong. I'm tired of someone who can't even plunge a toilet or wash a dish telling me how to live my life. Tired of it all because when it comes down to it, my girl and I are never quite important enough to show a little regard to.
I wish him the best. But I did not sign on for being criticized and taken advantage of by a 33 year old boy. No matter how you spin it as "how he is", it doesn't make it okay.
You fellas will always be friends no matter what, because you have always been boys doing boy things. There is not much of an excuse for taking advantage of me though. Aside from the fact that I'm a decent person and will help someone. But when someone jumps on for the mere fact that I am that way and plays it to the fullest extent...? Find another fool. We have enough hurts.
Look, I don't want you to love him less. I was and am pissed off as to how I have been used. I thank you for being sweet on the matter however I think things have progressed to a point where I can no longer tolerate being treated the way I have been.
I will not say it's okay for him to be the way he is toward me only because there is no good reason to be shitty or disrespectful toward me.
Therefore, it needs to be dealt with.

I'm so glad you are in love! I am happy for you even if I miss your even temper.
Come visit sometime, won't you?

Oh and is Mc really moving to Arizona or is that more crap put out there for entertainment?

I think the most horribly painful thing you can say to someone who is a parent that they disgust them as being so. There is no way to take those words back and there is no way to make it feel better.
Thank you now. I am painfully aware that I am lacking. Thank you. I need that slap in the face.

of course, nobody asked for my opinion, but since these are public postings, what the hell.

h., i'd advise you to chill.

the situation sounds pretty straightforward to me. guy and woman share tight apartment. (always a recipe for conflict). it turns out that guy behaves like a slob (basically, we all are, unless we are gay or anal retentive). woman gets angry, maybe even nags a bit too much. guy blows his top and says nasty things.

if you are the landlord, and you can't stand his presence, kick him out. end of story. not nice, but it's the only real solution, isn't it?

but don't take this quite normal conflict personally, h.!

being a single parent is heroic enough. there is no need to be a perfect mom and don't take it personally if someone implies you could be better. of course you could be better, there is always room for improvement, but try to keep in mind that, from a psychological perspective, to be a "good enough" parent is better than to be a perfect parent. it's better for the child, and better for the parent too.

Martino, with all due respect... you know not of which you speak.
There are hurts and angers that can be gotten over and there are hurts and angers that cannot.
I have my own regarding my child that I already feel like killing myself for. When someone in a fit of spite uses it against me and says exactly what he knows will break my heart just for the sake of winning an argument, I cannot justify that.
Because I know I'm not a shitty parent, I'm a damn good mommy but I haven't always known what's going on and bad things have happened. And to throw that in my face is inexcusable, cruel. To tear a scab off a wound that is just now healing is the most rotten thing anyone can do emotionally.
Just so it's clear, he is leaving on his own accord. And I'm letting him off easy as a verbal agreement is binding in this state, however in this case, I'll let it slide.

h. i've always enjoyed your posts. I would love to meet you. However, is Mc in hiding in that you couldn't settle this face to face rather than posting it all over the net for everyone to see? Maybe some things are better left on the "down low", but then again maybe I shouldnt stick my foot in the door where it doesn't belong.

yeh, I'm sorry I chose this venue to speak my mind. Shame on me, Jack. shame on me.
Last post so I might as well not log in. Mc is back, as you can see. Nothing's wrong so...
Shame on me for having an opinion. Shame on me for standing up for myself.
Shame on me.
Hey, Slothie, can you block my login so I can't write here anymore?
Seems I am belligerent and offensive. Jack and Martino think I'm being too candid about Mc. And well, I guess I am.
Shame on me.

oh come on, h., jack and i weren't meaning to criticize you and nobody thinks you are belligerent, offensive or too candid. we were just trying to be helpful.

what i mean is, if you want to solve your problem with mc then talk it over with him. if you don't want to solve it, well then it's your business, isn't it.

maybe she never sees mc. maybe they have poor communication.maybe there is no advice to be given.

h.,
Your posts are candid,
"so please don't go
don't go, don't go away
please don't go
don't go, I'm begging you to stay"

Only for you, Miss Sarah.

Autumn takes it's measures
In leaves
Falling from me in all
The colors of your many
Faces.
In each of these faces,
The most remote
Fragments
Of what you are all pushed
Together into one collage.
None of them making any
More sense than an
Earthquake.
Nature.
Natural disasters
Purging
To make new.
Forgetting,
It is the shedding
Of leaves.

my heart goes out to all who have been put out bycom this situation.