Harold and Maude

[mccutcheon]

Plus New York City is in America unlike St Louis Cafe and this city is fun.

[TragicPixie]

yes... that city is not made for broke uni. students who don't drive though....

the fun outlook is not looking very good... I have to move back to the dorms wednesday; classes start monday...

ugh.. school... ew ... work Hurrah for all the people to buy me drinks!

I don't get to have any real fun though until Dec.

[mccutcheon]

Maybe we should get some Pax boys to come to your campus. I'm sure us old farts would be a hit.

I'm sure you have seen the movie Old School. There are loads of us 30 something guys who still act 1/2 our age. 15... I did a lot of fucking at 15. Because I could. I was one of the lucky ones. I had this girl who was in love with me and always told me I would be this great artist because I was shy and sensitive and could fuck all day. It was weird to hear back then. I guess she got it wrong because I ain't so great. And what did she know anyway, she is in jail for robbing banks. But still, she was kinda my first experience besides my dad's 40 year old secretary- I used to get rapped in Wisconsin bowling alleys parking lots. And it is funny because the woman who raped me used to say – ‘wow you keep getting hard right after you come-- like three times now', and what she didn't know was I had just had sex with the soon to be ex-con five times that day. It was only later I learned I wasn't normal, and that maybe I was depraved. And no, I never reported the rape, because I liked it. Of course I was sorta scared and didn't really know what to do with this OLD Lady—5 years from where I am now. But still what a fucking thrill. Just because a thrill can be scary and new and you don't know what is really going on doesn't mean it turns out bad. Sometimes it does but sometimes it doesn't. And that is life and love, and if not love than at least fucking.

[TragicPixie]

hmmm... hey, do you by any chance have any brothers or cousins or something at st. louis uni?

I swear there's this guy around campus who makes me think of you. He looks like you and is obsessed with music. He's a great writer... hmmm...

If you came to my campus i'd hang out with you Ecspeically if you bought me drinks.

[mccutcheon]

I would bring a lot of things for you and SO. Like wisdom. Don't get married. Fuck and love and have kids, but don't do it, they want you to do it. and we hate 'they'. Doesn't anyone besides me and my fried mind see the structure they construct around us? Time for me to stop listeing to Howard Jones and time to put on some 60's cock pussy soul music. Mr. Bob Dylan and Jimi and James and Janis you hear me calling?

[TragicPixie]

I hate they as much as the next person... but I also want to get the fuck out of the US. Plus, I like being with SO for more than two weeks at a time.

[mccutcheon]

okay okay.

so what are you wearing and can you take it off and write all the details as you do?

I'll go first. I'm naked and have just brought it to my lips and suck it down. my glass of wine that is.

[TragicPixie]

I'm wearing lazy college student attire MC... scrub bottoms that have SLU across the ass and a white strappy top; it's humid as all fuck.

[mccutcheon]

Humid is good. I have been humid all summer.

[TragicPixie]

hehe I hate the heat

[Tom]

Anything else you guys wanna talk about in my Harold and Maude thread??



I kinda miss St. Louis. I lived there about 7 years ago for 2 years. I fell in love there...man did I fall hard. The most attractive person I have ever met...which in turn also meant the most fucked up. But it was wonderful. Nothing more beautiful than a bottle of wine , a balcony, a broken heart, and the sun setting in a thunderstormed sky.

I was held up with a machete there. Lived through earthquakes and riots and NYC living-no problems..then move to the nice ol midwest and get a bloody 15inch knife put to my neck. It was quite the experience. I didn't have enough money in my wallet to make him go away. The poor fool who walked up behind us got the brunt of the punches and stabs.

But-other than that it was easy living.

[TragicPixie]

lol sorry Tom *drunkenly pours you a drink as an apology*

I can't imagine anyone missing st. louis... Nothing ever happens and there's nothing to do.

Okay; I say this as I'm drunkely making my way out the door to go see a very, very bad midnight movie at the Tivioli... hmm Still nothing to do though... ecspeically nothing to do for the under 21 set.

Sorry about you getting mugged... but hey, think how many people have had that experience? I mean, how often does that happen with that sort of weapon; I can't imagine terribly often.

[Tom]

omg...I forgot about the loop. There was a record store there I used to shop at.

What was that movie theater that was near the other end of Forest Park...it showed art house movies. I saw Shanghai Triad there by myself on new year's eve 1995.

St. Louis was incredible only because I lived in big cities all my life. It was a nice break from things.

I lived on Kingshighway at the montclaire. My days were spent on my balcony overlooking Forest Park-and at the Coffee Cartel writing in my journal...oh-and I ate every night at Bar Italia...but I hear it moved now.

[and]

I cried my eyes out in a car outside Balabans.

[TragicPixie]

hmm ... *thinks of good theathers* the Hi-Pointe?
The last time I was there was when The Company (ballet movie) was running.

eh, I still hate this city. After this morning I'm starting to hate it just a little more.. maybe it has nothing to do with the city but more the fact that my family is too close