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Kitten · Post by **Kitten** » Mon Mar 08, 2004 3:32 am

boys fucking suck you can get yourself off just as well or better without them no more boys til college or modeling competition in august b/c i hate them right now. just felt like saying that.

rosie · Post by **rosie** » Mon Mar 08, 2004 4:47 pm

oh boys have gotten me into a heap of trouble in the new year. i thought i could date two men at the same time. it backfired one morning after a surprise visit from boy #1 while boy #2 was sleeping in my bed. i had taken boy #1 to mexico 2 days earlier. i told him i was dumping him before we left so i thought i had him sign the waiver so to speak to allow another one in my bedroom. when he came over for a surprise visit he calls me on the phone to tell me he is in front of my house and to come outside. i put on my most concealing jacket as i was butt naked, hung over and just been fucked. he asks me whose car is parked in the driveway. i cannot lie so i tell him it is the boy in my bed. hefreaks out calls me a crap load of names and smashes boy #2's headlights and kicks in the door. when i wake up boy # 2 he was very upset. a couple days later he finds his instant messenger and they have a nasty conversation.
boy # 2 is also a disaster. he still shares a business with his ex girlfriend who i find out he leaves for me. he doesn't live with her , but hasn't really moved out either. one night at the canterbury she finds us follows us out to the car and she and another girl intercept us in our parking place. his ex gets out of the car, he power locks the door, but she has a key. she opens my side with her key grabs me ,scratches me, yells ,beats me up and rips my bag off of me. i was still seated belted in.
the following week i am with boy#2 going to the movies.we see boy#1 and boy#2 runs, i follow. boy #1 is a thug. he follows us until we are cornered at the escalator. finally, i have to say hi to try and look unafraid. boy#2 continues running up to the movies and hides in a bar.i get screamed at , leave and i think it is all over. i find boy #2 in a bar drinking . i sit down and guess who we see outside the bar looking at the movie times. BOY # 1. being a player is not what it is cracked up to be when you are dealing with garbage. today i dumped both of them. hopefully, i will be alive tomorrow. goodluck kitten.

Post by **Sloth** » Mon Mar 08, 2004 9:02 pm

Maverick · Post by **Maverick** » Tue Mar 09, 2004 2:55 am

sounds like you could use to date a different sort...

rosie · Post by **rosie** » Tue Mar 09, 2004 12:37 pm

oh, you think?

Tommy Martyn · Post by **Tommy Martyn** » Tue Mar 09, 2004 11:14 pm

Seems to me that you didn't get into trouble because you were two timing. You got into trouble because boyfriend #2 didn't stand up to his "ex" or if she was still his current girlfriend, didn't bother to go drinking somewhere out of the way. With regards boyfriend #1 why not call the cops? Get a restraining order for you or boyfriend #2. Failing that hit him with a brick.

Staying with violence I threatened to beat a guy up last week at Dick's on broadway for the terrible crime of jumping the line. The week before that I was walking home from a bar with a friend when eight or nine brothers surrounded us,this guy in front of me kept saying, "Are you banging me man. Are you trying to bang me." Meanwhile a guy behind me threw a beer bottle (it was MGD - I checked the glas the next morning) an luckily it bounced off the top of my head from about six feet away. In the moment when they all tought I was about to crumple to the floor I ran off as fast as thirty years of rugby practice could take me. I thought I left all this shit behind twenty years ago.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 09, 2004 11:18 pm

dear Kitten,

you are wrong. You can do an adequate job of getting yourself off by yourself but in no way is it better than having someone along for the ride. As long as it is the right someone.

Can you explain why it will be different when college or a modeling competition comes along?

martino · Post by **martino** » Thu Mar 11, 2004 2:48 pm

ah, the welcome international pax acidus feeling. it's good to know yous have been having troubles as well, because i once again got in a nasty spat two weeks ago.

as a matter of fact i now have this scar on my face that my pal doc val says won't go away. i think i'll post my story and a really gory picture that was taken in a few days, be patient please.

Post by **mccutcheon** » Thu Mar 11, 2004 5:49 pm

What in the hell have you been up to, no good sounds like Mr. Martino. Spring time in NYC?

marky · Post by **marky** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 9:28 pm

Good god. I'm shocked at all this violence in paxacidus land. It's very sad. I'm tempted to pray for you all, but then I'm the atheist sort. I guess I'm just very sorry all this has happened.

Maverick · Post by **Maverick** » Sat Mar 13, 2004 2:59 am

someday I want to get in a barfight with Tommy...not fighting Tommy, but fighting someone else, with him. He seems like a good guy to have an old-fashioned melee with.

h. · Post by h. » Fri Mar 26, 2004 4:59 am

I agree Mav, bar fight with Tommy, not against Tommy. I think I'd just prefer to watch though. It would be comical.

Tommy Martyn · Post by **Tommy Martyn** » Fri Mar 26, 2004 5:14 am

Hello H are you on line? Hope the little one is doing well.

Post by **Sloth** » Fri Mar 26, 2004 6:40 am

Here is a poem written by Kitten. Pretty good if you ask me. Vain. Personal. And More... reminds me of a female Rimbaud if I do say so...

The only thing you ever gave me one time

Was a syringe.

Nothing for Valentine's

Nothing for favors

Nothing for choking down your fluid.

Oh I swallowed your poison

And only yours

For months on end

Nearly dying a little more each time with disgust.

Only a needle

Politely sterilized

Like the looks we exchange each time we pass

Depending on if you let your eyes meet mine.

If I were you I wouldn't be able to

Knowing I used and stole

And never gave anything back

Knowing that I wanted to be my brother so bad

But never will be

Knowing I smashed someone's serenity like that.

Someday maybe you will learn to appreciate the scars

Deep inside me that you have left behind

Everything I drank

And went through for you

Every moment I defended your illnesses from the laughter of others.

But there is no time to bleed it out

I must keep going through the motions

Like the smoke rise like a ghost

Every morning

Getting colder and bitter

Holding it together holding my mother together

So she will be there when I wake up in the morning

Unlike you.

One day your brother will come back from this war

And you will see

And I will see

That you can never, ever be him.

Because everytime I see your face

Smiling in the sunshine

I look at the Spanish moss in your yard

I wish I could hang myself from it

Drifting eternally in the breeze over water.

- KR Maybank

Post by **Sloth** » Fri Mar 26, 2004 6:42 am

I love it!